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[12 Mar 2008|10:12pm] |
I'm in love.
With everything.
My Friends.
My Family.
My Barry.
My Emily.
My Life.
yup, everything.
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[19 Feb 2008|03:47pm] |
Im not doing so good this semester between accounting and business law I hate my life.
I can't wait to be done with school gahh!
Getting a hair cut today, finally!
Last day im off before I leave to denver which means I work 9 days straight...sweet!
Not going to miami anymore for the ptw show, as much as I want to go see everybody I can't afford to go down for a night..even though all you people are worth it haha.
Ok back to school.
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[19 Oct 2007|01:07pm] |
Friends Only
"I'm taking it back, i'm taking them all back."
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[18 Oct 2007|10:52pm] |
When will people begin to live their own lives?
If you don't know me, why is your daily routine to check up on how i'm doing?
If i don't know you, why would you think i care what you have to say?
I've gotten over things the past couple of years not sure why other people that never were in mine and barry's relationship haven't.
Barry and i aren't together, he's free, bother him....not me!
You, whoever you are...leave me alone, want him? im sure you have already contacted him.
I am moving on with my life, you should try and get one of your own.
Silly people, i grew up...he said, she said is just plain dumb.
So what if he was cheating on me this whole time...he fooled me! Good, great, awesome. In my heart i want to believe that wasn't true...but we aren't together anymore and everything happens for a reason. I don't hate him and you (whoever you are) will never make me hate him...UGH!
ok going to the movies <3
Vero
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[09 Oct 2007|09:02am] |
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today i start forgetting.
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[04 Oct 2007|09:15am] |
Something positive about all this, my stomach is so empty and acting so weird even drinking orange juice is too much to handle. So i'll loose some weight, sweet!
I'm kind of excited about a couple of things this month.
Friday- Jen's birthday.
Sunday- Ocala with jen. =) (no comment)
Oct. 12- my dad gets here for a week.
Oct 16 & 17- Andy M. is in town.
Oct.20th- probably be in st. pete a whole bunch.
Oct. 23- Saves the day, oh i cant wait, nothing can keep me from smiling this day.
Oct. 26-28- Back to Miami, home sweet home, tattoos, hang outs, nothing but smiling.
Nov.-I hope jay haas can come.
I can take this day by day, and i know i'm going to be okay. I am a mess right now but barry was taken out of my life for a reason.
Trust vs. mistrust- Who do i trust?
Anatomy vs. Shame- Creating your own being, learning to live for yourself.
Initiative vs. guilt- How i feel, no one is to blame.
Industry vs. Inferiority- Getting my self-esteem back, being able to find someone who respect me, start over with a can do attitude.
It's funny how this was what i learn in class.
Today i'm okay. Tomorrow hopefully i'll be better.
<3
V
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[02 Oct 2007|03:31pm] |
Barry and i are officially over.
i dont even know what to say or do anymore.
Everything i planned for my future is gone. My happy wedding is not happening anymore, taking off my ring and the mark not leaving is hard to handle.
Nothing anybody can say will make me feel better, i am more then heartbroken im done.
I have a weird feeling in my stomach and all its letting me do is throw up. I am beyond depressed i cant even control myself.
I will never hate barry, ever, no matter how much shit he has put me through i am madly and deeply in love with him, he is my life, my best friend but i had to let him go.
D'arcy is right, love istn suppose to hurt but im weak.
All i need right now is friends, i know ive been a bad one the past couple of years and i know i probably don't deserve anything, but thats all i need, i need people to make me smile and forget.
Im not writting this to get pity from anyone, i just need to vent what im feeling.
All i can do now is wait and hope that i'll make it through this.
I love you so much barry matthew dunemann, i just wish i could have made you happy. I really do.
Sincerly yours,
Veronica.
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[28 Sep 2007|11:12am] |
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Pet Semantary is on right now. gage (sigh)
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[25 Sep 2007|08:39am] |
SO i went out, with jen and allison...fucking middle school united. It was allison's 23rd bday weird i've know them for almost 10 years but anyway.
My life has been kinda of a mess, but here is some pictures to proof to you guys that i am still alive haha.
( Howl at the moon... )
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[20 Sep 2007|08:27am] |
My stomach hurts, my head hurts, my heart hurts, my fingers hurt, i have a huge hole in my lip from bitting to try to keep myself from not crying in class.
I'm a mess, everything i have tried to build up for is over. I am hoping somewhere, somehow time can take everything back.
It hard, yea yea i'll be fine i hear it from everybody. I don't want to be fine alone though i really don't.
If i have any friends left, call me, come see me!
Megan, thank you for answering your phone and making me laugh everyday. Get on a plane, come see me. I need to be able to laugh even if its for a couple of days.
Please for right now i don't want to go into it, i don't want to talk about it more then this or whats wrong or what happen.
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[11 Sep 2007|08:56am] |
I have to move out, do an outline and an essay on juggling and the effects it has on the brain (Learn how to juggle), study for 2 test, and work every single day this week. My life is insane right now.
but....saves the day in orlando Oct 23. Yes!
<3
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[06 Sep 2007|08:40am] |
I am kinda excited about megans wedding...i get to see people i really miss, well some of them at least haha, this is the dress? probably?
http://www.unique-vintage.com/images/unique-vintage/7306larger.jpg
my ass has to loose some weight so i can fit in with all you other non-spanish vegan bridemaids haha <3<3
Something about old looking, fat chicks flirting with bald creepy guys bothers me...i can't help but picture them having sex and her annoying laugh makes me get the grossies. People watching in this school is outta control!
Psycology test today, hmm 4/5 so i didn't get the extra credit wtf?
I ordered this because i needed a duvet cover and i can't afford to spend $90 on the one i really want.
It was on sale for $29.99 so thats not bad at all.
Today
school 7am-1245pm
Work 130pm-1030pm
Friday
Work
130pm-1030 pm
Saturday
900am-530pm
Sunday
OFF....datenight (dinner and mr.bean)
Packing and moving
Monday
work
800am-430pm
Moes...$5 burritos
Someone come visit me at work...i get lonely!
<3
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[30 Aug 2007|08:42am] |
School is a drag, but i'm almost done.
I was looking at all the classes i need to graduate and i only have 3 after this semester, THANK EFFIN GOD.
My mom has been here for the past month and its kinda nice having her.
Barry has been hanging out with jerry more and more and it made me realize that i need some friends, i feel like i've lost so many since we started dating that now that his friends need him i am left all alone, it kinda sucks. For the past year i havent slept alone and for the past two nights it's been Emily and i, so weird.
Looking at brides maid dresses in kinda exciting, being in someones line...oh kinda exciting. Having a new $3,000 bed, ummm yea pretty amazing.
Things aren't as bad as i make them seem but i dont know i just have a bunch of emotions in my head.
On a better note i totally ran 15 min straight yesterday, i was in like the worst shape i have ever been and its kinda weird people usually said "You start craving going to the gym" hmm yea i do.
Hey Bubba!
For my management class i have to work hands on with the owner of a gym and imma be working at metro muscle downtown, maybe i'll see you a little more then random running into each other haha <3
Ok off to class
v
oh ps.
I totally got "Thunder" on my thigh in a pink cloud with baby blue polka dots and lighting bults coming out of it...pretty damn funny.
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[04 Aug 2007|11:18pm] |
Alex quit/walked out/got fired and im bummed, she was the only girl i liked at worked.
Next weekend is the tattoo convention down south and of course barry made all his appointments and i got stuck with none, hopefully skotty will have time to at least finish my back.
Emily bear is a brat. But my family is more then perfect <3
life is good.
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[27 Jul 2007|12:00pm] |
Its funny how things happen, friends i had years ago are just an awkard hello now. Followed with a "holy shit how are you?" followed with that weird "Yea call me we'll hang out!" and then you realise you don't have that person's phone number in your phone anymore and all you can remember is the area code. Sometimes i wish i would gone through live differently but then when i think of the out come it probably wouldnt have been as good as it is right now. I miss laughing and having people be excited to see me, i miss being able to go to a show and have fun, i miss driving with jess, kirra and nicole and just driving with no destination.
Barry and i are not going to be living with each other for a couple of months in a month, he is moving back into his parents house and i am moving a block (not even) away into a condo with my little sister. A condo my parents bought and wont let barry live in till be get married (that spanish catholic shit) We have no money, but we are still more in love then ever and i guess thats all that really matters.
I found these, seriously, best times i've had in years:
ps.Anna wtf is wrong with us hahaha
Good times.
Laundry.
gym.
Barry.
Emily bear.
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[19 Jul 2007|12:00am] |
wow forgot about this for a second.
Barry and I celebrated another year together, how the times go by.
I have lived in orlando for a year already and i have hated every minute about it so far, well apart from the being with barry and getting my emily bear of course.
The past couple of months have been filled with work, universal studios, date nights, meeting new couples and still being a grump.
Nickless is looking at plane tickets and that makes me happy, its been over a year since ive seen him.
Just incase you forgot what i or barry look like and how incredibly happily married we are here ya go!
i got a bunch more but im too lazy to upload them.
love,
Vero
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[06 Jun 2007|12:06pm] |
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ugh...stress is taking over my life.
I stress about everything, i have been holding so much in for so long i am just glad i have barry to hold me when i break down and cry like a little baby. (literally i cried and cried like a little baby)
But my days off are over and i have my regional manager comming in to see the store today and i hate agreeing with everything they say.
Next week is luckys sale and im going to hate everything and everyone.
Ugh!!
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[17 May 2007|10:25pm] |
more pics...
the girls...
and my baby girls...
more pics from our vacation soon <3
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[13 May 2007|09:52am] |
All i have to say about last night is what we kept saying the whole night.
"Ten years in the making."
I can't explain how amazing the saves the day show was and how amazing the whole night was, i wish barry was with me so he could sit and listen to chris talk about marrige but next time he will. Pictures comming soon. The team was back together last night and it felt so good.
Day two of my vacation and i'm going back home to papa and we start our road trip. Nothing planned just our ipod and some cokes and we will be driving north.
I missed laughing so much and loosing my voice from screaming songs all night.
man oh man.
love you...well most of you anyway<3
Veronica Vaughn
edit:
Here is some pictures...
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[17 Apr 2007|10:04am] |
Emily needs to stop eating chocolate.
School needs to end before i end my life!
Today is going to be a wifey day, laundry, cleaning the apt and then me and the boys (jerry and barry) are going to "rage" haha man.
let the good times roll!
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